4-4-13: A Happy Day!

hi!

I had a very nice cardio session at the gym today, very enjoyable. I am able to use the elliptical with a higher resistance than I used to, actually, twice the resistance. I feel fresh and invigorated. I also talked to the trainer who I am considering working with. He also has irritable bowel syndrome, and I think that will be helpful. I will need someone who will believe me when I say something hurts, not in a positive muscles-getting-stronger-way, but in a intestines-spasming-violently way.

I have been 100% wheat free for four days, and I am feeling better indeed. Less abdominal pain, although I still have some pain from my interstitial cystitis. I don't know yet whether my reduced abdominal pain is REALLY because of the wheat, since the pain goes up and down, but in a few weeks I will know. I am experiencing a lot of cravings and may be eating more sugar than is wise. The past few days since Easter, I ate some small servings of white chocolate sometimes because I cannot have any other kind of chocolate. People on diets are always talking about how chocolate is an okay treat. However, I looked this up online, and it said white chocolate is NOT like other chocolates... it really has no nutritional value whatsoever. Drats!

I think it makes sense, now that I am eliminating wheat, to eliminate even small servings of sugar-based junk foods. I know they are doing nothing for me and do hurt me, even in the small sizes I can easily fit into my daily calories. I am currently experiencing my refreshed feeling from the gym but it is dampened because I have a sore throat from the small piece of white chocolate. I bet I would feel even more amazing if I cut those treats if it wasn't a special occasion, like Roberta.

I am still getting used to thinking of food as feul, not enjoyment. I know if others can do it, I can do it too! I know I am making enormous progress. Hell, before this endeavor I would sometimes wake up in the middle of the night with cream cheese cravings so strong I would blither into the fridge. I would scoop the full fat cream cheese onto a bread, bagel, tortilla, ANYTHING and eat the whole container of it. I know that's gross, but it is an example of the way I let my cravings control me in the past. I am not perfect yet, nor will I ever be perfect, but I am doing pretty well!

My weight this morning was 164.5. It is so exciting to see that number! I'm pretty sure the lightest I ever got during my high school workouts was about 165. Before that going back to early puberty, and after that until now, I have always been heavier than 165 - culminating in being 210 in July 2012. During my high school diet, the only exercise I was doing was running - no resistance training, no upper body or torso or back muscle. So, as I continue, I will be seeing my body in a way it has never been in my life. I have never been a fit adult. I am only about 6.5 pounds away from being a healthy BMI! that is so exciting and will help propel me to stick with a wheat free diet, and ditch sugar traps as well.

Elizaebth